Tuesday, March 16, 2010
It's the night before we travel to China, and here it is almost midnight, and I'm cleaning out the refrigerator. I'm sure you are asking yourself, why is she cleaning out the refrigerator at midnight? Well, we're going to be gone for almost 3 weeks, and I wanted to clean out the fridge and freezer before we leave.We're going to turn it off while we are gone.Why at midnight? That is a very good question indeed. I just can't sleep. Every night, I wake up around 3 Am, and then I spend the rest of the night just thinking, thinking, thinking through everything I have to do before we travel. Once I am awake, it's hard for me to go back to sleep. Last night, in the wee hours of the morning, I remembered dreaming about the four foster children we had, plus the two we are adopting, plus another little Chinese boy. In the dream, they were all calling me mommy, and we were all really juggling to keep everything together. Yikes!!! But my point is this; I'm up this late cleaning out the refrigerator because I've resigned myself to just not sleeping. I'm worried about the children, and I'm simply not going to sleep until we finalize the adoptions. Really, we are all just counting down the hours until we bring home our boys!